21 months is up and I can finally get a new phone. My current one is rather slow and got some problems like sometimes no connection, people call and then can't get thru... but other than these, its quite ok. Exterior nice phone. I think I care about the exterior of phones a bit too much... really meh? But its going to be with me for at least 21 months. How can I just sui bian get one that's cheap? Then you see nicer phones around and then you regret for not buying that cos you want to save money. The feeling is not good loh.

But then again its really quite bo liao to spend so much money on a phone. The purpose of a phone is just to make phone calls mah. And to sms only. Once in a while take out in public place to use then if nice then wah! loh. That feeling is good de. Suddenly feel I am quite xu1 rong2. But its true mah. If you have nice and special things, its good. Who don't like special and nice things? And its like super dumbo to say that who and who is special cos she likes special things. DUH! If people can afford and can find, every single person would want loh. Who wants to be medicore and uses things everybody has? Who don't want to be special and stand out in the crowd? I think its very normal to like special things. SO SUPER DUH!

Suddenly feel that very simple things like getting a phone for myself becomes so complicated. Why har? 2 views, 2 extremes. 1 is that a phone will be with you for 2 yrs. So must get one you really like. Unless you are very sure, don't buy. But plan up liao leh... heart itchy to change. 2nd view is that a phone is only a phone. Why must get such high end one? Can use then ok already mah. It's true loh... but I dun wan mah. I want a nice nice phone. I want to get something I like. I don't want to compromise on something I don't really like for the cheap price tag. That's why I actually bear to spend money to buy nice bags, nice cosmetics, nice diaries, nice notebooks, nice clothes and every other things that are nice. Not that I don't know that nice things don't come cheap and money don't come easy. But people only live once in this identity. (Shall not dwell on whether there is afterlife) So if you can afford and you really like something, why not?

But then life is full of uncertainties. You never know what's going to happen and so money is the best tool. No matter what happens, it helps to have cash with you. And the pretty bags and clothes and all won't fetch you a single cent. Even if it does, it will never be as liquid as cash. So why not save up the money for something else? Something more impt, something that deserves the money more. Why spend on a phone? So just get some old model, pay a a few dollars and then get on with life. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See when then I can get out of this stupid dilemma. Stupid!!!!!