I said sorry to him. I cried while saying... Also dunno y... haha. But I definitely felt better. I guess I did wrong also... after fan xing...
And once again prove that crying actually helps relieve my sadness and stress a lot!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Jill Stuart Fall/ Winter 08 LE Illuminance Collection
This collection is beautiful!!! Its limited edition. Launching on 1 August. Not too sure if I can get it...
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Jill Stuart Infatuation
Saw something very pretty. Have always liked it... but never bear to spend the kind of money to get it. But hey I spent $85 getting a Shu LE eye palette!! But the Shu stuff are really good... so I guess its kind of OK to buy... but not often of cos.
Jill Stuart Brillance Eyes #4 Gem Amenthyst
Yah the one called #4. It's going to be discontinued soon. Feel like getting it cos I also feel its very pretty. Costs $77 to get it to SG. Quite near to Jpn's price. Can seriously consider.
Limited Edition Blusher...
I like the #2 one. Gold... very pretty hor.. the casing also very nice. Costs $69 to get it to SG. Add both tog, costs about $146. Gosh... But they are really very pretty... and once gone, no more le!!!
The LE freak Sze... this is probably a serious hobby for me bah. I think only people in CozyCot can understand this kind of mentality. Cos 90% of them are more serious than me oh!
Still in the lousy mood btw.
I'm like facing one of the worst bad moods for Year 2008 up till now. For some reason, I feel very difficult to get happy. Its some kind of moody inside. It started with a little angry and then it turned good. Then due to some misunderstanding btw him and I, everything turned bad.
Was it my fault that I didn't want to hang around to wait for him? But I smsed him to tell him that if I have to hang around for 4 hrs, I don't have that many things to do and I think I better go home. I was in that area till half an hour after I sent out my sms. Thou I arranged for some prata eating session with cc friends... but if he has indicated to me clearly that it would be good for me to stay around, I would. But I din get any response. And so I left. It doesn't make sense to wait till 6 pm at suntec for him and then he needs to leave at 7 pm to reach Novotel at 7.30 pm.
And for some reason, his thing ended early... want to meet me at 4 pm at suntec. Gosh... I'm already at prata place liao.
Obviously he got angry. And then it spoilt my day. For some reason, I then couldn't get happy again. No reason for me to smile, be happy or whatever. I just feel lousy. Am I in the wrong? I sms him saying sorry le. But he didn't reply. But am I in the wrong in the first place? If by logic, I think I am not wrong. But if its about 2 pple, then perhaps I should have waited for him, regardless of how late it is. Maybe its this contradiction that's making me moody. Why apologise or feel bad when logically I am not wrong? But I should have waited for him right? Despite the risk of having to wait 4 hrs?
There are times when he's too much and I get angry... maybe sometimes I am too much as well. I dunno. I'm just feeling moody. Wanted to write it down somewhere. Need to fa xie qing xu. Else maybe will sulk for the whole weekend. For this moment, I really don't like myself. I need a rest. I need to hide.
Was it my fault that I didn't want to hang around to wait for him? But I smsed him to tell him that if I have to hang around for 4 hrs, I don't have that many things to do and I think I better go home. I was in that area till half an hour after I sent out my sms. Thou I arranged for some prata eating session with cc friends... but if he has indicated to me clearly that it would be good for me to stay around, I would. But I din get any response. And so I left. It doesn't make sense to wait till 6 pm at suntec for him and then he needs to leave at 7 pm to reach Novotel at 7.30 pm.
And for some reason, his thing ended early... want to meet me at 4 pm at suntec. Gosh... I'm already at prata place liao.
Obviously he got angry. And then it spoilt my day. For some reason, I then couldn't get happy again. No reason for me to smile, be happy or whatever. I just feel lousy. Am I in the wrong? I sms him saying sorry le. But he didn't reply. But am I in the wrong in the first place? If by logic, I think I am not wrong. But if its about 2 pple, then perhaps I should have waited for him, regardless of how late it is. Maybe its this contradiction that's making me moody. Why apologise or feel bad when logically I am not wrong? But I should have waited for him right? Despite the risk of having to wait 4 hrs?
There are times when he's too much and I get angry... maybe sometimes I am too much as well. I dunno. I'm just feeling moody. Wanted to write it down somewhere. Need to fa xie qing xu. Else maybe will sulk for the whole weekend. For this moment, I really don't like myself. I need a rest. I need to hide.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
I was feeling very upset and disappointed and actually cried cos I felt very unjustified.
I'm not sure if I ever blogged myself changing dept to marketting and sales earlier this year in March 08. Yah and then boss changed to a new one. Thing is, the change wasn't complete. It was a half half. Half of me transferred but half title of my old dept remained.
I'm 110% sure my new boss hated my old dept and supposedly everyone there. And I am one of them. Now piecing up the things that happened, realised that he never actually welcomed me to his team. Responses from him were lukewarm, we had nothing in common to talk about... In short, from the 1st day, I don't think he liked me.
Then after I joined his dept, then a new girl came. 100% for marketting and sales. Seems like he'll like her more cos she's 100% under him, can chit chat and he likes to talk to her more.
When he talks, seems like he's only talking to her cos he never looks at me. Makes me wonder if I am an audience. Or I just happen to be there and listening to what's never meant for me to hear.
Then today, new girl asked him about the budget. All the way he never looked at me while I stood there. Again, seems like I am 100% extra. After his long speech, I asked him what's my role. Then he said "good question" and then said he thinks I got to help out for budget preparation at my old dept. So if I want to help he cannot stop me. So he means that my heart is always not at my new dept lah?
Then I told him old boss nv told me I needed to help... then he said then that's good, then you can help us do the budget at this side. What is the meaning of "you can help us"? You mean I am just helping out? I am not in your team?
Then worse still, I'm taking leave on Monday... then some consultant called and asked to meet for lunch. He had no time but only Monday, so he arranged Monday. I mean I was the one who wanted to take leave, so if no choice go w/o me its OK. But you know what he did? He quietly went to tell new girl about the lunch. He spoke at a very soft level, meaning he doesn't want me to know. I thought it was basic courtesy to at least inform me that there's this lunch and cos he has no choice, so he had to go w/o me. By hiding from me... what's his problem??? I felt very upset and disappointed with him.
Frankly speaking, if I were to be under a boss like him, frankly speaking, there's no future. Why would you promote or train a person you don't see as your own team, and esp when you kind of hate people from that old dept? To be fair to him, I think I should talk to him about how I felt. But instincts tell me its going to make things worse.
Anyway I think there's no point in me staying in this company. Come to think about it, this place has nothing I want. If there's anything I miss, it'll be ah peh. Not too sure if one day, I'll complain about him too... well, you never know.
Conclusion: It's time to job hunt again!
I'm not sure if I ever blogged myself changing dept to marketting and sales earlier this year in March 08. Yah and then boss changed to a new one. Thing is, the change wasn't complete. It was a half half. Half of me transferred but half title of my old dept remained.
I'm 110% sure my new boss hated my old dept and supposedly everyone there. And I am one of them. Now piecing up the things that happened, realised that he never actually welcomed me to his team. Responses from him were lukewarm, we had nothing in common to talk about... In short, from the 1st day, I don't think he liked me.
Then after I joined his dept, then a new girl came. 100% for marketting and sales. Seems like he'll like her more cos she's 100% under him, can chit chat and he likes to talk to her more.
When he talks, seems like he's only talking to her cos he never looks at me. Makes me wonder if I am an audience. Or I just happen to be there and listening to what's never meant for me to hear.
Then today, new girl asked him about the budget. All the way he never looked at me while I stood there. Again, seems like I am 100% extra. After his long speech, I asked him what's my role. Then he said "good question" and then said he thinks I got to help out for budget preparation at my old dept. So if I want to help he cannot stop me. So he means that my heart is always not at my new dept lah?
Then I told him old boss nv told me I needed to help... then he said then that's good, then you can help us do the budget at this side. What is the meaning of "you can help us"? You mean I am just helping out? I am not in your team?
Then worse still, I'm taking leave on Monday... then some consultant called and asked to meet for lunch. He had no time but only Monday, so he arranged Monday. I mean I was the one who wanted to take leave, so if no choice go w/o me its OK. But you know what he did? He quietly went to tell new girl about the lunch. He spoke at a very soft level, meaning he doesn't want me to know. I thought it was basic courtesy to at least inform me that there's this lunch and cos he has no choice, so he had to go w/o me. By hiding from me... what's his problem??? I felt very upset and disappointed with him.
Frankly speaking, if I were to be under a boss like him, frankly speaking, there's no future. Why would you promote or train a person you don't see as your own team, and esp when you kind of hate people from that old dept? To be fair to him, I think I should talk to him about how I felt. But instincts tell me its going to make things worse.
Anyway I think there's no point in me staying in this company. Come to think about it, this place has nothing I want. If there's anything I miss, it'll be ah peh. Not too sure if one day, I'll complain about him too... well, you never know.
Conclusion: It's time to job hunt again!
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