I was feeling very upset and disappointed and actually cried cos I felt very unjustified.

I'm not sure if I ever blogged myself changing dept to marketting and sales earlier this year in March 08. Yah and then boss changed to a new one. Thing is, the change wasn't complete. It was a half half. Half of me transferred but half title of my old dept remained.

I'm 110% sure my new boss hated my old dept and supposedly everyone there. And I am one of them. Now piecing up the things that happened, realised that he never actually welcomed me to his team. Responses from him were lukewarm, we had nothing in common to talk about... In short, from the 1st day, I don't think he liked me.

Then after I joined his dept, then a new girl came. 100% for marketting and sales. Seems like he'll like her more cos she's 100% under him, can chit chat and he likes to talk to her more.

When he talks, seems like he's only talking to her cos he never looks at me. Makes me wonder if I am an audience. Or I just happen to be there and listening to what's never meant for me to hear.

Then today, new girl asked him about the budget. All the way he never looked at me while I stood there. Again, seems like I am 100% extra. After his long speech, I asked him what's my role. Then he said "good question" and then said he thinks I got to help out for budget preparation at my old dept. So if I want to help he cannot stop me. So he means that my heart is always not at my new dept lah?

Then I told him old boss nv told me I needed to help... then he said then that's good, then you can help us do the budget at this side. What is the meaning of "you can help us"? You mean I am just helping out? I am not in your team?

Then worse still, I'm taking leave on Monday... then some consultant called and asked to meet for lunch. He had no time but only Monday, so he arranged Monday. I mean I was the one who wanted to take leave, so if no choice go w/o me its OK. But you know what he did? He quietly went to tell new girl about the lunch. He spoke at a very soft level, meaning he doesn't want me to know. I thought it was basic courtesy to at least inform me that there's this lunch and cos he has no choice, so he had to go w/o me. By hiding from me... what's his problem??? I felt very upset and disappointed with him.

Frankly speaking, if I were to be under a boss like him, frankly speaking, there's no future. Why would you promote or train a person you don't see as your own team, and esp when you kind of hate people from that old dept? To be fair to him, I think I should talk to him about how I felt. But instincts tell me its going to make things worse.

Anyway I think there's no point in me staying in this company. Come to think about it, this place has nothing I want. If there's anything I miss, it'll be ah peh. Not too sure if one day, I'll complain about him too... well, you never know.

Conclusion: It's time to job hunt again!