I'm like facing one of the worst bad moods for Year 2008 up till now. For some reason, I feel very difficult to get happy. Its some kind of moody inside. It started with a little angry and then it turned good. Then due to some misunderstanding btw him and I, everything turned bad.

Was it my fault that I didn't want to hang around to wait for him? But I smsed him to tell him that if I have to hang around for 4 hrs, I don't have that many things to do and I think I better go home. I was in that area till half an hour after I sent out my sms. Thou I arranged for some prata eating session with cc friends... but if he has indicated to me clearly that it would be good for me to stay around, I would. But I din get any response. And so I left. It doesn't make sense to wait till 6 pm at suntec for him and then he needs to leave at 7 pm to reach Novotel at 7.30 pm.
And for some reason, his thing ended early... want to meet me at 4 pm at suntec. Gosh... I'm already at prata place liao.

Obviously he got angry. And then it spoilt my day. For some reason, I then couldn't get happy again. No reason for me to smile, be happy or whatever. I just feel lousy. Am I in the wrong? I sms him saying sorry le. But he didn't reply. But am I in the wrong in the first place? If by logic, I think I am not wrong. But if its about 2 pple, then perhaps I should have waited for him, regardless of how late it is. Maybe its this contradiction that's making me moody. Why apologise or feel bad when logically I am not wrong? But I should have waited for him right? Despite the risk of having to wait 4 hrs?

There are times when he's too much and I get angry... maybe sometimes I am too much as well. I dunno. I'm just feeling moody. Wanted to write it down somewhere. Need to fa xie qing xu. Else maybe will sulk for the whole weekend. For this moment, I really don't like myself. I need a rest. I need to hide.