I was on the train to meet Yan at Cityhall MRT this afternoon.
Just so happen that at the Clementi stop, 2 students, presumably from NUS came in. They were carrying a luggage case. They started to speak. I somehow think that the girl wasn't chinese. And I was right. She was Japanese. The guy, her bf... somehow is either Singaporean or Taiwanese... he knew how to speak Japanese too... but speaks English like a Singaporean or maybe a little Taiwanese.
Girl: blabbing in Jap
Guy: I like the way you speak in Jap
Girl: I like the way you speak in English
Ahem...ahah... quite funny
Then later girl started talking about her room mate and how nice she was. Then the guy said its because you are nice, that's why people are nice to you. Girl feels very fortunate that all the people around her are nice people. And then after quite a pause, girl says "My mum always tells me that if you are nice to people, people will be nice to you".
Somehow, something so simple... but I almost forgotten I knew this. Unhappiness and feeling of unfairness has taken over me... and I become more and more self-centered. I kind of appreciated people less for what they have done for me but concentrated more on why they didn't do this and that. Felt quite bad that I actually thought this way... and forgotten the basics... that if you would like people to treat you nicely, you should treat people nicely too.
And I also found courage to face whatever is there for me... even if they were all decided to dislike me... that I'll be brave and stand up right amid all storms.
I'll be nice and more appreciative. :)
Monday, December 22, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
I Finally Signed Up for Jap Class
Heyo!!!
On 21st Dec 08, Amelia finally signed up for her Jap classes!!! Elementary class, every Sunday, 1020 to 1230! First lesson starts 11 Jan 09.
Not too sure how I'll do but its my first step to pursuing my interest. I like Jap skincare and cosmetics... but I'm totally clueless at their labels and all.
I like to go Japan... its a really pretty country with so many interesting things. Was a pity when I didn't know how to couumunicate with the locals.
Go Sze Go!!!
Effort must be put in. Jia You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On 21st Dec 08, Amelia finally signed up for her Jap classes!!! Elementary class, every Sunday, 1020 to 1230! First lesson starts 11 Jan 09.
Not too sure how I'll do but its my first step to pursuing my interest. I like Jap skincare and cosmetics... but I'm totally clueless at their labels and all.
I like to go Japan... its a really pretty country with so many interesting things. Was a pity when I didn't know how to couumunicate with the locals.
Go Sze Go!!!
Effort must be put in. Jia You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Cape No. 7
Watch this taiwanese show called Cape No. 7 or in chinese hai jiao qi hao.
It's a very simple story... but told in a touching way. Something very close to normal people's heart. Missing someone, loving someone... in a very simple way. Some love letters that were supposed to be sent out 60 yrs ago... but did not. Only until the man died, his daughter helped send it out.
Abt 60 yrs back, Japan lost WWII and then went back from one of its places it fought on, Taiwan. Btw Taiwan was a colony of Japan for abt 50 yrs. The older folks then had to learn jap and all. A teacher fell in love with a student... then when the war lost, the Jap teacher had to go back Japan... and he loved and missed the girl so much... but didn't manage to stay. He left the girl behind, together with his love and how much he missed her.
Liked the music that went along with it... and the mood of the story... and how simple it is. And not to forget the show was really quite funny...haha.
The old man called ah mao po (Ah Mao Uncle) is so funny!!
Anyway its a movie I'll like to watch again... maybe a few years later.
Just as a footnote, I watched this with Wenhui and Lixiang.
He went back Mal to go Genting w his family.
It's a very simple story... but told in a touching way. Something very close to normal people's heart. Missing someone, loving someone... in a very simple way. Some love letters that were supposed to be sent out 60 yrs ago... but did not. Only until the man died, his daughter helped send it out.
Abt 60 yrs back, Japan lost WWII and then went back from one of its places it fought on, Taiwan. Btw Taiwan was a colony of Japan for abt 50 yrs. The older folks then had to learn jap and all. A teacher fell in love with a student... then when the war lost, the Jap teacher had to go back Japan... and he loved and missed the girl so much... but didn't manage to stay. He left the girl behind, together with his love and how much he missed her.
Liked the music that went along with it... and the mood of the story... and how simple it is. And not to forget the show was really quite funny...haha.
The old man called ah mao po (Ah Mao Uncle) is so funny!!
Anyway its a movie I'll like to watch again... maybe a few years later.
Just as a footnote, I watched this with Wenhui and Lixiang.
He went back Mal to go Genting w his family.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Financial Tsunami
As the people coined it, we are currently experiencing a financial tusnami. Something like this has never happened before. It all started with a credit crunch where people in the US actually borrowed money to buy houses and then they couldn't pay up the instalments. More and more people faced with the same situation. They called it the "Sub-prime crisis".
Major banks started to have lots of bad debt written off. And they see negative in their P/L. And suddenly you hear of some unknown US banks went bankrupt. Nobody thought it was that bad. Then Freddie Mac and Fannie Mae got into trouble. They were US backed banks which main business was to lend money to not so prime people to buy houses. And so... to prevent them from going bankrupt and having the whole of US going into recession or something, the US govt intervened and put in money to save the two banks.
And just when things seem to get a little better, big investment banks like Lehman Brothers went bankrupt. Familar insurance companies like American Insurance Group (AIG) also got into serious trouble. Merill Lynch got bought over by Bank of America. And perhaps other episodes. And investment banks like Goldman Sachs and Morgan Stanley or something are no longer allowed to do big time investment and have to become normal banks like DBS. Haha. And then the US govt approved a bill to put in US$7b to save the economy.
Following the US, europe also got into some financial crisis and lots and lots of money from the govt is needed to save their own economy. In short, the financial sector is going into big big problems.
And the Dow Jones went below 10,000 pts. The other two US indicators S&P and whatever also crashed like mad. Straits Times Index (STI) went below 2,000 pts.
And then crude oil is now below US$70/bbl compared to a few months back where it was like almost or at times hit above US$140/bbl.
Yesterday, our PM said in a speech that Singapore is going into a recession. The next year is going to be very volatile.
Such a economy crisis is really unprecendented. And those consultants and all said that this crisis is going to be a deep one and has not reached its peak. And its going to take longer than usual to recover. The next hit most probably will be the credit card crisis. Oh man.....
Let's all brace ourselves up for the bad bad times to come!!!!!!
Major banks started to have lots of bad debt written off. And they see negative in their P/L. And suddenly you hear of some unknown US banks went bankrupt. Nobody thought it was that bad. Then Freddie Mac and Fannie Mae got into trouble. They were US backed banks which main business was to lend money to not so prime people to buy houses. And so... to prevent them from going bankrupt and having the whole of US going into recession or something, the US govt intervened and put in money to save the two banks.
And just when things seem to get a little better, big investment banks like Lehman Brothers went bankrupt. Familar insurance companies like American Insurance Group (AIG) also got into serious trouble. Merill Lynch got bought over by Bank of America. And perhaps other episodes. And investment banks like Goldman Sachs and Morgan Stanley or something are no longer allowed to do big time investment and have to become normal banks like DBS. Haha. And then the US govt approved a bill to put in US$7b to save the economy.
Following the US, europe also got into some financial crisis and lots and lots of money from the govt is needed to save their own economy. In short, the financial sector is going into big big problems.
And the Dow Jones went below 10,000 pts. The other two US indicators S&P and whatever also crashed like mad. Straits Times Index (STI) went below 2,000 pts.
And then crude oil is now below US$70/bbl compared to a few months back where it was like almost or at times hit above US$140/bbl.
Yesterday, our PM said in a speech that Singapore is going into a recession. The next year is going to be very volatile.
Such a economy crisis is really unprecendented. And those consultants and all said that this crisis is going to be a deep one and has not reached its peak. And its going to take longer than usual to recover. The next hit most probably will be the credit card crisis. Oh man.....
Let's all brace ourselves up for the bad bad times to come!!!!!!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Stressed!
I just realised I'm actually very stressed from work. Like afraid of people overtaking me, afraid boss thinks that I cannot make it, afraid that I did not put in enough effort...
STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mindset must change!!
STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mindset must change!!
Lessons in Life
I'm not so sure if its my age that's making me feel this way... but I do think that being 25, half a century old and a firm believer that I won't live past 40, I shouldn't be living life the way I am.
I have started work for 2 years in the same old company. I want to accomplish something. I do not want to always be a follower and do whatever people ask me to do. I should have more initiative to push things forward... do more studies on my own and have more ideas. Then I can improve my status in the company and also the way I view my contribution to the company. I think its time I should seriously think of how to contribute.
Apart from work, my personal life also lacks some drive. I'm not doing anything important. Neither am I earnestly learning anything. I guess I am only earnestly spending money. Its kind of frightening to know that despite the huge amount of cash I have to spend every month (its about 2k, mind you), I still overshoot it. It's really really scary. I almost lost track of what I actually bought. When you see the bills coming, I won't be surprised if I actually forgot what I paid for.
Following that frightening self discovery, I made a committment to save up properly. In the July/ August spending period, if I did not remember wrongly, I did not make any huge credit buys besides the Bioskin thingy. Apart from that, I guess it would be perhaps some meals and the RMK stuff and the Shinji Katoh collection which didn't fall into last period's payment. I could be wrong... but I hope I do get to save money this time round. I'm now in the August/ September spending period. So far I have only spent about $100 on a Tangs warehouse sale and have successfully evaded all shopping trips and temptations so far. Good job... and will hold on till month end. Then another 12 days to go!
I think... what I have learnt... is to make an effort to change what I don't like. I'll make more and more effort to make contributions to my job, curb my lousy habit of spending unnecessarily and also live life with a more positive attitude! If I try hard enough, who says I cannot make a difference!!
And I'm on my way to find out my ultimate goal in life. (thanks to my dear friend Kwan Ho who chatted with me on MSN)
I have started work for 2 years in the same old company. I want to accomplish something. I do not want to always be a follower and do whatever people ask me to do. I should have more initiative to push things forward... do more studies on my own and have more ideas. Then I can improve my status in the company and also the way I view my contribution to the company. I think its time I should seriously think of how to contribute.
Apart from work, my personal life also lacks some drive. I'm not doing anything important. Neither am I earnestly learning anything. I guess I am only earnestly spending money. Its kind of frightening to know that despite the huge amount of cash I have to spend every month (its about 2k, mind you), I still overshoot it. It's really really scary. I almost lost track of what I actually bought. When you see the bills coming, I won't be surprised if I actually forgot what I paid for.
Following that frightening self discovery, I made a committment to save up properly. In the July/ August spending period, if I did not remember wrongly, I did not make any huge credit buys besides the Bioskin thingy. Apart from that, I guess it would be perhaps some meals and the RMK stuff and the Shinji Katoh collection which didn't fall into last period's payment. I could be wrong... but I hope I do get to save money this time round. I'm now in the August/ September spending period. So far I have only spent about $100 on a Tangs warehouse sale and have successfully evaded all shopping trips and temptations so far. Good job... and will hold on till month end. Then another 12 days to go!
I think... what I have learnt... is to make an effort to change what I don't like. I'll make more and more effort to make contributions to my job, curb my lousy habit of spending unnecessarily and also live life with a more positive attitude! If I try hard enough, who says I cannot make a difference!!
And I'm on my way to find out my ultimate goal in life. (thanks to my dear friend Kwan Ho who chatted with me on MSN)
My little thoughts about 2008 Beijing Olympics
Today Team Singapore Table Tennis Girls Team is going up against Team China and both are vying for the Gold medal! Wohoo at last a confirmed medal for Singapore after 48 yrs of bringing egg home. Although the whole team is made up of girls whom Singapore hired from China, nontheless they wear Singapore's polo tees and should Singapore win, its Singapore's flag and our Majullah Singapura that's going to be aired. I'm not so optimistic about them clinching the gold medal. I just hope that they don't lose too badly. However, if they do win, I'll be just as glad! Deep down inside, I do hope that in years to come, we have true blue Singaporeans who'll represent Singapore to clinch a medal in the Olympics. By then, I believe our whole nation will be super proud of them!! Yohoo!!
On my face and products
I don't know if this has anything to do with my blog name... but my face stayed pimplished, even till now. I'm really hoping that the Bioskin treatment can help me but I'm feeling kind of pessimestic. I'm not so sure if my weekday makeup routine has anything to do with the kind of face I have now. But going bare-faced to work is like killing myself. Red with pimples and the oil on my face... I think that's enough to make anyone who thought I looked at least cute to change their impression of me. Think they'll think I look like an auntie who just washed my face with oil.
At home I try to keep my face as no makeup as possible. I'll just let the oil run and maybe blot once or twice with my Fancl blotting paper.
Actually also not too sure what's the real reason of the breakout. Maybe its the MAC blusher or mineralised skinfinish (MSF) or anything MAC... or I didn't sleep enough and so my skin is protesting in a big way... or something else is clogging my face big time but I just didn't know it.
I recently bought RMK cleansing oil. The Biore one... I kind of think it cannot get off my face cleanly even after double cleansing with my Kanebo cleanser. Hence went to get the RMK one which supposedly has raves for being able to cleanse off easily without any oily residue. And how true it is. So kind of like it now. Think its up for keeps.
I also started using Ettusais "Acne Skin Version Up". It's kind of a softener that preps the skin for toner and moisturizer... It's supposed to prevent pimples. Not too sure how true it is. But anyway my skin is still clogged like mad.
For makeup, I kind of gave up on powders. Cos I think they do clog my pores. Hence I switched to RMK makeup. I bought the makeup base together with the liquid foundation. Both of they are quite watery and quite easy to blend. The liquid foundation is really quite liquid. However, its coverage is not that bad afterall. Concealers are of cos a must. I am still sticking to my Canmake one. I'm not sure if this clogs pores thou. Concealing power is not bad. And its not too expensive. Drugstore brand... hehe... Love drugstore brands with quality.
So far I'm not spotting the RMK makeup to clog my pores. I'm still checking it out and observing my skin's reaction to it. I really hope to find one that does no harm to my skin. I'm wondering if I can stop my search and declare that RMK is the one for my poor pimplish face. Its time it can face the world without those yucky red pimples and scars!!!
At home I try to keep my face as no makeup as possible. I'll just let the oil run and maybe blot once or twice with my Fancl blotting paper.
Actually also not too sure what's the real reason of the breakout. Maybe its the MAC blusher or mineralised skinfinish (MSF) or anything MAC... or I didn't sleep enough and so my skin is protesting in a big way... or something else is clogging my face big time but I just didn't know it.
I recently bought RMK cleansing oil. The Biore one... I kind of think it cannot get off my face cleanly even after double cleansing with my Kanebo cleanser. Hence went to get the RMK one which supposedly has raves for being able to cleanse off easily without any oily residue. And how true it is. So kind of like it now. Think its up for keeps.
I also started using Ettusais "Acne Skin Version Up". It's kind of a softener that preps the skin for toner and moisturizer... It's supposed to prevent pimples. Not too sure how true it is. But anyway my skin is still clogged like mad.
For makeup, I kind of gave up on powders. Cos I think they do clog my pores. Hence I switched to RMK makeup. I bought the makeup base together with the liquid foundation. Both of they are quite watery and quite easy to blend. The liquid foundation is really quite liquid. However, its coverage is not that bad afterall. Concealers are of cos a must. I am still sticking to my Canmake one. I'm not sure if this clogs pores thou. Concealing power is not bad. And its not too expensive. Drugstore brand... hehe... Love drugstore brands with quality.
So far I'm not spotting the RMK makeup to clog my pores. I'm still checking it out and observing my skin's reaction to it. I really hope to find one that does no harm to my skin. I'm wondering if I can stop my search and declare that RMK is the one for my poor pimplish face. Its time it can face the world without those yucky red pimples and scars!!!
Monday, August 11, 2008
Jill Stuart Order
Heyo!
I went to order Jill Stuart stuff from a girl called Moonflower. Now to talk about my stuff!! Wohoo!
I bought:
1) LE Mix Blush Palette in Illuminance #101 (from cozycot missy_jessie) $75 (receving soon)
2) LE Mix Blush Palette in Illuminance #102 (from Moonflower) $69
3) LE Eyeshadlow in Illuminance #5 (flash veil) (from Moonflower)$77
4) Eyeshadow in Brillance #4 Gem Amethyst (from Moonflower)$77 (going to be discontinued)
Yah so my story is this... I bought items 2 to 4 from Moonflower [http://moonflowergal.livejournal.com/].
Yah add up together very expensive right... and I received my package from her today!! hehe... Opened it up and the items are really very very pretty, especially the LE blush. I didn't order #101 from her as I thought I could control my temptations. However, sucummbed to it le. Cos it looks so pretty... then since its LE and I intend to collect it... so I think maybe I should buy 2 to keep. Wanted initially to buy from Moonflower but I read somewhere that it is out of stock in Japan alreadty. Dunno how true it is but it sure takes a few days to get the items.
Instead of waiting again, decided to get from cozycotter missy_jessie who has #101. Think she bought one more but decided to sell it off. So buying this is more of to complete the Illuminance collection bah. Besides the lip gloss, I think I have every LE item for this Illuminance collection le!! Wohoo! I suppose pretty packaging makes a lotttt of difference... hehe.
Maybe if I got the mood, will take photos of all the JS items I bought this round and post. Heheh...
I went to order Jill Stuart stuff from a girl called Moonflower. Now to talk about my stuff!! Wohoo!
I bought:
1) LE Mix Blush Palette in Illuminance #101 (from cozycot missy_jessie) $75 (receving soon)
2) LE Mix Blush Palette in Illuminance #102 (from Moonflower) $69
3) LE Eyeshadlow in Illuminance #5 (flash veil) (from Moonflower)$77
4) Eyeshadow in Brillance #4 Gem Amethyst (from Moonflower)$77 (going to be discontinued)
Yah so my story is this... I bought items 2 to 4 from Moonflower [http://moonflowergal.livejournal.com/].
Yah add up together very expensive right... and I received my package from her today!! hehe... Opened it up and the items are really very very pretty, especially the LE blush. I didn't order #101 from her as I thought I could control my temptations. However, sucummbed to it le. Cos it looks so pretty... then since its LE and I intend to collect it... so I think maybe I should buy 2 to keep. Wanted initially to buy from Moonflower but I read somewhere that it is out of stock in Japan alreadty. Dunno how true it is but it sure takes a few days to get the items.
Instead of waiting again, decided to get from cozycotter missy_jessie who has #101. Think she bought one more but decided to sell it off. So buying this is more of to complete the Illuminance collection bah. Besides the lip gloss, I think I have every LE item for this Illuminance collection le!! Wohoo! I suppose pretty packaging makes a lotttt of difference... hehe.
Maybe if I got the mood, will take photos of all the JS items I bought this round and post. Heheh...
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Cried
I said sorry to him. I cried while saying... Also dunno y... haha. But I definitely felt better. I guess I did wrong also... after fan xing...
And once again prove that crying actually helps relieve my sadness and stress a lot!
And once again prove that crying actually helps relieve my sadness and stress a lot!
Jill Stuart Fall/ Winter 08 LE Illuminance Collection
This collection is beautiful!!! Its limited edition. Launching on 1 August. Not too sure if I can get it...
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Jill Stuart Infatuation
Saw something very pretty. Have always liked it... but never bear to spend the kind of money to get it. But hey I spent $85 getting a Shu LE eye palette!! But the Shu stuff are really good... so I guess its kind of OK to buy... but not often of cos.
Jill Stuart Brillance Eyes #4 Gem Amenthyst
Yah the one called #4. It's going to be discontinued soon. Feel like getting it cos I also feel its very pretty. Costs $77 to get it to SG. Quite near to Jpn's price. Can seriously consider.
Limited Edition Blusher...
I like the #2 one. Gold... very pretty hor.. the casing also very nice. Costs $69 to get it to SG. Add both tog, costs about $146. Gosh... But they are really very pretty... and once gone, no more le!!!
The LE freak Sze... this is probably a serious hobby for me bah. I think only people in CozyCot can understand this kind of mentality. Cos 90% of them are more serious than me oh!
Still in the lousy mood btw.
I'm like facing one of the worst bad moods for Year 2008 up till now. For some reason, I feel very difficult to get happy. Its some kind of moody inside. It started with a little angry and then it turned good. Then due to some misunderstanding btw him and I, everything turned bad.
Was it my fault that I didn't want to hang around to wait for him? But I smsed him to tell him that if I have to hang around for 4 hrs, I don't have that many things to do and I think I better go home. I was in that area till half an hour after I sent out my sms. Thou I arranged for some prata eating session with cc friends... but if he has indicated to me clearly that it would be good for me to stay around, I would. But I din get any response. And so I left. It doesn't make sense to wait till 6 pm at suntec for him and then he needs to leave at 7 pm to reach Novotel at 7.30 pm.
And for some reason, his thing ended early... want to meet me at 4 pm at suntec. Gosh... I'm already at prata place liao.
Obviously he got angry. And then it spoilt my day. For some reason, I then couldn't get happy again. No reason for me to smile, be happy or whatever. I just feel lousy. Am I in the wrong? I sms him saying sorry le. But he didn't reply. But am I in the wrong in the first place? If by logic, I think I am not wrong. But if its about 2 pple, then perhaps I should have waited for him, regardless of how late it is. Maybe its this contradiction that's making me moody. Why apologise or feel bad when logically I am not wrong? But I should have waited for him right? Despite the risk of having to wait 4 hrs?
There are times when he's too much and I get angry... maybe sometimes I am too much as well. I dunno. I'm just feeling moody. Wanted to write it down somewhere. Need to fa xie qing xu. Else maybe will sulk for the whole weekend. For this moment, I really don't like myself. I need a rest. I need to hide.
Was it my fault that I didn't want to hang around to wait for him? But I smsed him to tell him that if I have to hang around for 4 hrs, I don't have that many things to do and I think I better go home. I was in that area till half an hour after I sent out my sms. Thou I arranged for some prata eating session with cc friends... but if he has indicated to me clearly that it would be good for me to stay around, I would. But I din get any response. And so I left. It doesn't make sense to wait till 6 pm at suntec for him and then he needs to leave at 7 pm to reach Novotel at 7.30 pm.
And for some reason, his thing ended early... want to meet me at 4 pm at suntec. Gosh... I'm already at prata place liao.
Obviously he got angry. And then it spoilt my day. For some reason, I then couldn't get happy again. No reason for me to smile, be happy or whatever. I just feel lousy. Am I in the wrong? I sms him saying sorry le. But he didn't reply. But am I in the wrong in the first place? If by logic, I think I am not wrong. But if its about 2 pple, then perhaps I should have waited for him, regardless of how late it is. Maybe its this contradiction that's making me moody. Why apologise or feel bad when logically I am not wrong? But I should have waited for him right? Despite the risk of having to wait 4 hrs?
There are times when he's too much and I get angry... maybe sometimes I am too much as well. I dunno. I'm just feeling moody. Wanted to write it down somewhere. Need to fa xie qing xu. Else maybe will sulk for the whole weekend. For this moment, I really don't like myself. I need a rest. I need to hide.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
I was feeling very upset and disappointed and actually cried cos I felt very unjustified.
I'm not sure if I ever blogged myself changing dept to marketting and sales earlier this year in March 08. Yah and then boss changed to a new one. Thing is, the change wasn't complete. It was a half half. Half of me transferred but half title of my old dept remained.
I'm 110% sure my new boss hated my old dept and supposedly everyone there. And I am one of them. Now piecing up the things that happened, realised that he never actually welcomed me to his team. Responses from him were lukewarm, we had nothing in common to talk about... In short, from the 1st day, I don't think he liked me.
Then after I joined his dept, then a new girl came. 100% for marketting and sales. Seems like he'll like her more cos she's 100% under him, can chit chat and he likes to talk to her more.
When he talks, seems like he's only talking to her cos he never looks at me. Makes me wonder if I am an audience. Or I just happen to be there and listening to what's never meant for me to hear.
Then today, new girl asked him about the budget. All the way he never looked at me while I stood there. Again, seems like I am 100% extra. After his long speech, I asked him what's my role. Then he said "good question" and then said he thinks I got to help out for budget preparation at my old dept. So if I want to help he cannot stop me. So he means that my heart is always not at my new dept lah?
Then I told him old boss nv told me I needed to help... then he said then that's good, then you can help us do the budget at this side. What is the meaning of "you can help us"? You mean I am just helping out? I am not in your team?
Then worse still, I'm taking leave on Monday... then some consultant called and asked to meet for lunch. He had no time but only Monday, so he arranged Monday. I mean I was the one who wanted to take leave, so if no choice go w/o me its OK. But you know what he did? He quietly went to tell new girl about the lunch. He spoke at a very soft level, meaning he doesn't want me to know. I thought it was basic courtesy to at least inform me that there's this lunch and cos he has no choice, so he had to go w/o me. By hiding from me... what's his problem??? I felt very upset and disappointed with him.
Frankly speaking, if I were to be under a boss like him, frankly speaking, there's no future. Why would you promote or train a person you don't see as your own team, and esp when you kind of hate people from that old dept? To be fair to him, I think I should talk to him about how I felt. But instincts tell me its going to make things worse.
Anyway I think there's no point in me staying in this company. Come to think about it, this place has nothing I want. If there's anything I miss, it'll be ah peh. Not too sure if one day, I'll complain about him too... well, you never know.
Conclusion: It's time to job hunt again!
I'm not sure if I ever blogged myself changing dept to marketting and sales earlier this year in March 08. Yah and then boss changed to a new one. Thing is, the change wasn't complete. It was a half half. Half of me transferred but half title of my old dept remained.
I'm 110% sure my new boss hated my old dept and supposedly everyone there. And I am one of them. Now piecing up the things that happened, realised that he never actually welcomed me to his team. Responses from him were lukewarm, we had nothing in common to talk about... In short, from the 1st day, I don't think he liked me.
Then after I joined his dept, then a new girl came. 100% for marketting and sales. Seems like he'll like her more cos she's 100% under him, can chit chat and he likes to talk to her more.
When he talks, seems like he's only talking to her cos he never looks at me. Makes me wonder if I am an audience. Or I just happen to be there and listening to what's never meant for me to hear.
Then today, new girl asked him about the budget. All the way he never looked at me while I stood there. Again, seems like I am 100% extra. After his long speech, I asked him what's my role. Then he said "good question" and then said he thinks I got to help out for budget preparation at my old dept. So if I want to help he cannot stop me. So he means that my heart is always not at my new dept lah?
Then I told him old boss nv told me I needed to help... then he said then that's good, then you can help us do the budget at this side. What is the meaning of "you can help us"? You mean I am just helping out? I am not in your team?
Then worse still, I'm taking leave on Monday... then some consultant called and asked to meet for lunch. He had no time but only Monday, so he arranged Monday. I mean I was the one who wanted to take leave, so if no choice go w/o me its OK. But you know what he did? He quietly went to tell new girl about the lunch. He spoke at a very soft level, meaning he doesn't want me to know. I thought it was basic courtesy to at least inform me that there's this lunch and cos he has no choice, so he had to go w/o me. By hiding from me... what's his problem??? I felt very upset and disappointed with him.
Frankly speaking, if I were to be under a boss like him, frankly speaking, there's no future. Why would you promote or train a person you don't see as your own team, and esp when you kind of hate people from that old dept? To be fair to him, I think I should talk to him about how I felt. But instincts tell me its going to make things worse.
Anyway I think there's no point in me staying in this company. Come to think about it, this place has nothing I want. If there's anything I miss, it'll be ah peh. Not too sure if one day, I'll complain about him too... well, you never know.
Conclusion: It's time to job hunt again!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Sze's life at the age of 24, going to cross over to 25
I kind of think that I should record down somewhere how I felt about some important issues in my life before I forget or that I have moved on to other bigger/ more important priorities in life.
1) Getting Married
Since young I always thought of like fairy tale romance and then getting married to a guy I really like then have a family and all. Then as I grow older, have relationships with a few guys then realise that getting married is not as easy as I thought it would be or as smooth a process. My first bf disappeared 3 times and then never came back. The second one was so possessive I could not stand him. If I could, I would probably be planning for my wedding with him. The next one I wouldn't want to say more cos I wouldn't even regard that as a relationship. It's all too absurd and looking back, I can only say I was really crazy. The next one is a tricky one. It happened at a time where I somehow felt like settling down but yet could not get any committment from him to do so.
Then I got to speak with my Uni prof Dr Yang Kun-Lin who somehow pointed out a point which I kind of missed it. Actually he and I... probably still wants to play. None of us are really serious in settling down. Actually I cannot imagine myself changing diapers when I still could go Japan, or China or US or Europe to travel and experience life in different parts of the world. I still haven't seen enough, done enough... so frankly speaking, do I really really want to get married? I think the thing is I only want to have someone with me... a husband I can call my own and my own little family. Yet I still want the freedom to go out and play, go overseas, go shopping and spend money.
For him, he still has his work ambitions. He wants to go overseas to work for a few years then come back to be a manager or something. I think he has the capability to do it. However, that would mean that settling down is not something he would consider. Or maybe its me. He doesn't want to settle down with ME. Maybe so, I don't know. But all in all, actually seriously speaking I am not ready to settle down. So before I settle my problem, I cannot really talk about his.
One point Dr Yang brought out was that the guy would only introduce the gf to his family when he wants to settle down. That would then strongly suggest that he doesn't want to settle down with me. I seriously think so. And he also says that after the couple has done the whatever, the girl will find it difficult to leave the guy... so a bad relationship just drags on. Life is difficult, I know. But got to bear with it! The worst things in life are often the best things in life.
2) Money
I think if I didn't spend like I did, I would be VERY rich. I would have much more savings that WS. He thinks he's very rich btw, having some tens of thousands. If I have saved most of my money buying all the other stuff which I don't really need (but want badly at certain point of my life), I think I would have much much much more savings than he did.
I think I don't appreciate money a lot. Recently really kind of woke up and want to restrain myself. Reason? I think I overspent. I suppose I don't have enough money in my bank to pay off the credit card debts and have to use my savings. This is really BAD! So I'm curbing myself... not to spend any money using cards until the next card cycle. Only so then I can accumulate cash.
I am too much of a spendthrift and when I see something I like, I always want to own it. Sometimes I get too carried away I just spend. And if I don't keep track, then I lose control and overspend like last month. I must keep this lesson in mind and stop myself from impulse buys or branded stuff buys. I MUST DO IT! and I MUST SUCCEED!
3) Work
I have been working for about 2 years already. Still in the same company. Still whining about not having the opportunity to go overseas and work. Still not moving on even though I know this company can't give me the opportunity. Still staying because the people here are nice and give me other opportunities. The overseas one I cannot blame, because its a local company.
4) Opening my own company
Every young person I talked to says they want to own their own company... after working for a few years. I don't know if this is the current trend now... but everyone doesn't want to work for someone. If everyone went to open a company, then no one will have the money to go buy the things u sell, dud. Then there will be no companies to make the things you want to sell and no one to work for you. Hahahah... In every 100 people who says they want to open own company, only maybe 3 went to open and maybe none succeeds. In every 1000 people, maybe one succeeds.
I belong to the 1000, I also want to open my own company. But an online one. I still want to hold a job... in case anything happens to the company, I still got a job to keep me away from hunger. Online shop also means I do not need to rent a space, hire workers etc. This plan really requires some thinking and of course what I can sell. Doing something I am interested in and something that can make money. I am not sure if I will be one of the 999 who just say and not do anything. If I am serious enough, I think I definitely have to do something.
5) Investment
I just started to learn more about investments with WS. We have been attending classes or free seminars to learn more... see what we can buy etc. I think I want to buy index funds... or in SG, we call it ETFs. Have put aside $3000 to do this. Since its big money, I need to make sure that I am fully ready. I really have an urge to buy NOW!!! And hold it for long term growth. I hope that the next time I come back to re-visit this issue, my wealth would have grown. : )
1) Getting Married
Since young I always thought of like fairy tale romance and then getting married to a guy I really like then have a family and all. Then as I grow older, have relationships with a few guys then realise that getting married is not as easy as I thought it would be or as smooth a process. My first bf disappeared 3 times and then never came back. The second one was so possessive I could not stand him. If I could, I would probably be planning for my wedding with him. The next one I wouldn't want to say more cos I wouldn't even regard that as a relationship. It's all too absurd and looking back, I can only say I was really crazy. The next one is a tricky one. It happened at a time where I somehow felt like settling down but yet could not get any committment from him to do so.
Then I got to speak with my Uni prof Dr Yang Kun-Lin who somehow pointed out a point which I kind of missed it. Actually he and I... probably still wants to play. None of us are really serious in settling down. Actually I cannot imagine myself changing diapers when I still could go Japan, or China or US or Europe to travel and experience life in different parts of the world. I still haven't seen enough, done enough... so frankly speaking, do I really really want to get married? I think the thing is I only want to have someone with me... a husband I can call my own and my own little family. Yet I still want the freedom to go out and play, go overseas, go shopping and spend money.
For him, he still has his work ambitions. He wants to go overseas to work for a few years then come back to be a manager or something. I think he has the capability to do it. However, that would mean that settling down is not something he would consider. Or maybe its me. He doesn't want to settle down with ME. Maybe so, I don't know. But all in all, actually seriously speaking I am not ready to settle down. So before I settle my problem, I cannot really talk about his.
One point Dr Yang brought out was that the guy would only introduce the gf to his family when he wants to settle down. That would then strongly suggest that he doesn't want to settle down with me. I seriously think so. And he also says that after the couple has done the whatever, the girl will find it difficult to leave the guy... so a bad relationship just drags on. Life is difficult, I know. But got to bear with it! The worst things in life are often the best things in life.
2) Money
I think if I didn't spend like I did, I would be VERY rich. I would have much more savings that WS. He thinks he's very rich btw, having some tens of thousands. If I have saved most of my money buying all the other stuff which I don't really need (but want badly at certain point of my life), I think I would have much much much more savings than he did.
I think I don't appreciate money a lot. Recently really kind of woke up and want to restrain myself. Reason? I think I overspent. I suppose I don't have enough money in my bank to pay off the credit card debts and have to use my savings. This is really BAD! So I'm curbing myself... not to spend any money using cards until the next card cycle. Only so then I can accumulate cash.
I am too much of a spendthrift and when I see something I like, I always want to own it. Sometimes I get too carried away I just spend. And if I don't keep track, then I lose control and overspend like last month. I must keep this lesson in mind and stop myself from impulse buys or branded stuff buys. I MUST DO IT! and I MUST SUCCEED!
3) Work
I have been working for about 2 years already. Still in the same company. Still whining about not having the opportunity to go overseas and work. Still not moving on even though I know this company can't give me the opportunity. Still staying because the people here are nice and give me other opportunities. The overseas one I cannot blame, because its a local company.
4) Opening my own company
Every young person I talked to says they want to own their own company... after working for a few years. I don't know if this is the current trend now... but everyone doesn't want to work for someone. If everyone went to open a company, then no one will have the money to go buy the things u sell, dud. Then there will be no companies to make the things you want to sell and no one to work for you. Hahahah... In every 100 people who says they want to open own company, only maybe 3 went to open and maybe none succeeds. In every 1000 people, maybe one succeeds.
I belong to the 1000, I also want to open my own company. But an online one. I still want to hold a job... in case anything happens to the company, I still got a job to keep me away from hunger. Online shop also means I do not need to rent a space, hire workers etc. This plan really requires some thinking and of course what I can sell. Doing something I am interested in and something that can make money. I am not sure if I will be one of the 999 who just say and not do anything. If I am serious enough, I think I definitely have to do something.
5) Investment
I just started to learn more about investments with WS. We have been attending classes or free seminars to learn more... see what we can buy etc. I think I want to buy index funds... or in SG, we call it ETFs. Have put aside $3000 to do this. Since its big money, I need to make sure that I am fully ready. I really have an urge to buy NOW!!! And hold it for long term growth. I hope that the next time I come back to re-visit this issue, my wealth would have grown. : )
Saturday, May 17, 2008
In Love with Cherry Blossom
I'm so in love with this scent!! They have it in two scents... one infused with raspberry... sweet sweet de and another one just the cherry blossom itself. Bpth are just as nice.... faint le...
I put the paper with this scent in my bag then now my notebook smells like the cherry blossom... so nice!!!!! Costs $83 for 100 ml. Simply love it. But opps... haven't used my Lavin one which is I think cherry blossom also. ARghhhhh!!!
Milestone on Investment
Hey you know, I've finally transferred $3K to my POEMS trading account and am ready to start to trade CFDs! Meaning I can then buy ahem... index funds and all... park my money there and hoping that after x years, I can get a relatively OK return.
This is considered as a milestone lah... cos I've never really done such investments before... putiing a lump sum into some platform and then managing my own account. To me, $3K is a lot thou to some... its peanuts. Actually not really too sure if the index thingy really works... but $3K is really what I think I should be investing loh. The rest of the money I think I should keep for the dunno on or not on Hokkaido trip with parents.
Come this Nov, my $6K will come! Yippie! Then if the index fund or other investments work, then shall channel my money there. Put in the savings plan like negative return alr... since now CPI so high... 6%!! OMG!
This is considered as a milestone lah... cos I've never really done such investments before... putiing a lump sum into some platform and then managing my own account. To me, $3K is a lot thou to some... its peanuts. Actually not really too sure if the index thingy really works... but $3K is really what I think I should be investing loh. The rest of the money I think I should keep for the dunno on or not on Hokkaido trip with parents.
Come this Nov, my $6K will come! Yippie! Then if the index fund or other investments work, then shall channel my money there. Put in the savings plan like negative return alr... since now CPI so high... 6%!! OMG!
On Authentic and Fake Goods
I have a thing with fake goods and authentic goods...
You know... sometimes u really think that the real goods are like... blah... why pay a few hundreds for a bag like that... its made of canvas... gets dirty easily and all... I can get a leather one at the same price...dah dah dah... and you see one that looks pretty alike the real one but at a fraction of the real one's price. Then you get tempted and you buy! And you get the fake bag and you feel a lil happy abt it. Then you put it somewhere. You think since you bought it, might as well carry it. But ultimately, you know its fake!! Thou the seller claims its real... but you bought the real one before and you compare and you roughly know 90% its fake! And so how? You want to bring it out very much cos it looks nice. But then you are afraid that people might point fingers at you and say its a fake!!!! Then it will be super super embrarassing... I don't want that. But come to think of it, I've bought a few of those real look-a-like. Arghhh...
Carrying real ones is a different story. You feel good carrying a real stuff. You know it costs a lot. You know people who knows the brand knows it costs a lot. It looks good. The quality is good... thou still canvas and all... but you know its REAL! Ahhhh.... girls being girls.... being attracted to good pretty stuff and somemore... authentic branded stuff...
You know... sometimes u really think that the real goods are like... blah... why pay a few hundreds for a bag like that... its made of canvas... gets dirty easily and all... I can get a leather one at the same price...dah dah dah... and you see one that looks pretty alike the real one but at a fraction of the real one's price. Then you get tempted and you buy! And you get the fake bag and you feel a lil happy abt it. Then you put it somewhere. You think since you bought it, might as well carry it. But ultimately, you know its fake!! Thou the seller claims its real... but you bought the real one before and you compare and you roughly know 90% its fake! And so how? You want to bring it out very much cos it looks nice. But then you are afraid that people might point fingers at you and say its a fake!!!! Then it will be super super embrarassing... I don't want that. But come to think of it, I've bought a few of those real look-a-like. Arghhh...
Carrying real ones is a different story. You feel good carrying a real stuff. You know it costs a lot. You know people who knows the brand knows it costs a lot. It looks good. The quality is good... thou still canvas and all... but you know its REAL! Ahhhh.... girls being girls.... being attracted to good pretty stuff and somemore... authentic branded stuff...
Sunday, May 11, 2008
I like this bag quite a lot... prob since last year. Nowadays many people carry Coach bags. I don't really want to join the crowd. But I really quite like this bag as it seems like what I want for a slouchy bag.
Now there's a spree going on. http://happybeingmi.livejournal.com/2008/05/10/
She's going to get this bag at $545... I don't really rem the last price she quoted me thou. And this colour combi is something that I like. She's selling another one with khaki/ beet. That only costs $450. However the colour doesn't seem too nice. Moo says it looks younger thou. True, brighter colours always make something look younger. This colour too old for me?? Dunno woh...
Just want to register somewhere that I like/ liked this bag.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
The last time I blogged was 29 March! Wow that was like so long ago. Actually I always wanted to blog, write down things I felt and all... but when it comes to the doing, for some reason, I didn't. Probably the lazy worms come biting my bones?? Haha... whatever. Or if I had a portable and handy and user-friendly blogging machine, things might just get a lot better.
Recently have been on a buying spree... but come to think of it, I seem to be on a buying spree now and then. I think this is really really bad. Thank goodness I went to sign up for a no-brainer savings plan and some ILP (insurance linked plan) or whatever... and now I regularly save a bit more than S$1K a month and this gives me an OK interest. Looking at our CPI now, I think even this mere interest (many times higher than the peanuts interest the bank gives) makes my money shrink. Hence decided to look into higher returns investments.
Nowadays I go to POEMS free courses now and then to learn more about trading online. Buying stocks and all... Next Monday going to learn some simple techniques on technical analysis, do some charting and all so that if I ever decide to make investments, I can do with more confidence. However I would need time to be able to track the changes and all... and I am afraid that I will just lose my money in terms of seconds. Hence stock trading doesn't seem to be my cup of tea. Nevertheless, I think I should learn more about it than just yucks it and then run far far away. Bottom line is... Going to work and then earning that fixed salary isn't going to get me anywhere. Even the fixed savings doesn't.
A few weeks back went to a Adam Khoo investment talk. Nearly wanted to spend S$3K to learn how to invest. Then later found the POEMS free courses hence went to that instead. Of cos paying school fees and really learning how to earn $ seems to make more sense than attending the free courses as I expect myself to learn lots more from the Adam Khoo thing. However, $3K doesn't come cheap. And I don't think I have so much motivation and guts to put my money into the stocks market. One thing that I think I'll buy is the Index Funds. Think can be bought from POEMS as well. Dunno how it'll work out to be. Anyway... must keep myself on my toes and remind myself to do some sound investment! Yips!
Adam Khoo also talked about selling your intellectual property. Hence I think I should use what I know to make money hor. Like my knowledge in beauty products, the chemistry inside it and since I've tried so many products, maybe can do a review. Best of all hoping can do some online business and sell beauty/ skincare products. However problem comes with the source of the product. Maybe should start on a interest basis and see where it takes me to loh. Hehe.
Recently have been on a buying spree... but come to think of it, I seem to be on a buying spree now and then. I think this is really really bad. Thank goodness I went to sign up for a no-brainer savings plan and some ILP (insurance linked plan) or whatever... and now I regularly save a bit more than S$1K a month and this gives me an OK interest. Looking at our CPI now, I think even this mere interest (many times higher than the peanuts interest the bank gives) makes my money shrink. Hence decided to look into higher returns investments.
Nowadays I go to POEMS free courses now and then to learn more about trading online. Buying stocks and all... Next Monday going to learn some simple techniques on technical analysis, do some charting and all so that if I ever decide to make investments, I can do with more confidence. However I would need time to be able to track the changes and all... and I am afraid that I will just lose my money in terms of seconds. Hence stock trading doesn't seem to be my cup of tea. Nevertheless, I think I should learn more about it than just yucks it and then run far far away. Bottom line is... Going to work and then earning that fixed salary isn't going to get me anywhere. Even the fixed savings doesn't.
A few weeks back went to a Adam Khoo investment talk. Nearly wanted to spend S$3K to learn how to invest. Then later found the POEMS free courses hence went to that instead. Of cos paying school fees and really learning how to earn $ seems to make more sense than attending the free courses as I expect myself to learn lots more from the Adam Khoo thing. However, $3K doesn't come cheap. And I don't think I have so much motivation and guts to put my money into the stocks market. One thing that I think I'll buy is the Index Funds. Think can be bought from POEMS as well. Dunno how it'll work out to be. Anyway... must keep myself on my toes and remind myself to do some sound investment! Yips!
Adam Khoo also talked about selling your intellectual property. Hence I think I should use what I know to make money hor. Like my knowledge in beauty products, the chemistry inside it and since I've tried so many products, maybe can do a review. Best of all hoping can do some online business and sell beauty/ skincare products. However problem comes with the source of the product. Maybe should start on a interest basis and see where it takes me to loh. Hehe.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
I took a quiz
Read below for the very true description of me at the current stage on how I feel (i took a quiz btw)
The Steady
When it comes to your love life, you appreciate the romantic gifts: Roses, chocolates and other sweet surprises. But ultimately what touch your heart most are those intangible little gestures of love, like how he pays attention to your wants and needs, really listens to you and is always there to share your joys and tears.
You're down-to-earth, and that's great because you don't expect the impossible from your partner or a fairy-tale relationship. Sure, you're super glad to have found someone to share your life with, but at the same time you need your own space too.
Still, keep feeding your relationship with romance day after day and you can strengthen it even more: Give him a kiss, a cuddle and ask him how he's doing. Indulge in fancy dinner dates and surprise him with a Valentine card every now and then. The more attention you give to your relationship, the closer you'll become.
The Steady
When it comes to your love life, you appreciate the romantic gifts: Roses, chocolates and other sweet surprises. But ultimately what touch your heart most are those intangible little gestures of love, like how he pays attention to your wants and needs, really listens to you and is always there to share your joys and tears.
You're down-to-earth, and that's great because you don't expect the impossible from your partner or a fairy-tale relationship. Sure, you're super glad to have found someone to share your life with, but at the same time you need your own space too.
Still, keep feeding your relationship with romance day after day and you can strengthen it even more: Give him a kiss, a cuddle and ask him how he's doing. Indulge in fancy dinner dates and surprise him with a Valentine card every now and then. The more attention you give to your relationship, the closer you'll become.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Malacca Trip on Good Friday Long Weekend
It has been since a week I came back from Malacca. Have always wanted to blog and write down my feelings along the trip but I'm either too tired or too lazy, but mostly due to me being tired after work or after tuition.
I went with Lixiang, Zhong Cheng and Jin Tong, all are my CC friends. Actually Wenhui supposed to go, but fly aeroplane last minute. Hence Jin Tong came along. Seems like a good thing cos Jin Tong talks more then Wenhui and thus made the trip more lively. Wenhui seldom talks... btw. And also, Zhong Cheng's home is in Malacca.
It was a very fun trip I would say and mostly due to the fact that it was really relaxing there. It was a really free and easy trip cos we could go wherever we wanted to. There was a car for use and a new terrace house for us to stay in. Thou no fan, no bed and no heater... maybe cos I was tired... I fell asleep without much turns.
I ate a lot of things there, some of which I never ate before... like the chicken rice balls. Not too sure why the balls were not served hot... but still tasted rather nice. The chicken was a bit hard so I minus marks off the chicken. Ate prata there too. They call it roti cenai. We here call it roti prata. Nothing very special thou. The teh there is nice... cos its sweet enough. I like sweet drinks but not toooo sweet. Haha...
On Sat night we went for a big gathering dinner... cos ZC's gd friend Albert had a gathering with his customer cum friend Joris. This Joris is a Dutch and spent quite some time cycling around the world. Nice life! And he came back to find Albert cos about a year ago before he left, he said he'll be back and there he is. And cos so, Albert admires Joris for keeping his word. If I were Albert, I guess I would be. Promises nowadays don't mean a thing anymore because people no longer kept to their words. Hence if someone makes a promise to you and manage to keep it, then it becomes very precious. Last time when I was in primary school, there was a "qian bian wen da ti" that says "what is something that cannot be broken"? The answer is a promise. That was probably 12 years or more ago, when people generally believe so, that promises must be kept and cannot be broken. As time passes, it seems like this is being eroded. For me, I always believe that promises cannot be broken, unless someone whom you made the promise to you broke it. Then it becomes meaningless for you to keep your promise. Cos its not worth it anymore. And even if you stuck to yours, you end up being called "stupid".
As Malacca was so relaxing, I really enjoyed myself there. There, nobody seems to be in a rush for time. You generally do not see people running around so say things like "faster lah, no time already". You judge your own pace. Even like shopping... you can nua around and nobody kind of stresses you to buy. Btw I bought myYSL love palette (launched in Dec 07 in SG) in Parkson Malacca. Hahah... in SG all sold out le. In there still left 3. Heheh... thou not too cheap, abt S$68, I bought it. I take it as a collection. Pretty item!
I still have 11 days of leave to take... and I seriously don't know how to finish it. Maybe plan a holiday in the 2nd half of the year?? Hmm... see how lah.
Btw, Malacca's security is quite good. Not like JB or KL. Overall, many thanks to ZC and his family and friends for their kind gestures. Appreciate it a lot!!!
I went with Lixiang, Zhong Cheng and Jin Tong, all are my CC friends. Actually Wenhui supposed to go, but fly aeroplane last minute. Hence Jin Tong came along. Seems like a good thing cos Jin Tong talks more then Wenhui and thus made the trip more lively. Wenhui seldom talks... btw. And also, Zhong Cheng's home is in Malacca.
It was a very fun trip I would say and mostly due to the fact that it was really relaxing there. It was a really free and easy trip cos we could go wherever we wanted to. There was a car for use and a new terrace house for us to stay in. Thou no fan, no bed and no heater... maybe cos I was tired... I fell asleep without much turns.
I ate a lot of things there, some of which I never ate before... like the chicken rice balls. Not too sure why the balls were not served hot... but still tasted rather nice. The chicken was a bit hard so I minus marks off the chicken. Ate prata there too. They call it roti cenai. We here call it roti prata. Nothing very special thou. The teh there is nice... cos its sweet enough. I like sweet drinks but not toooo sweet. Haha...
On Sat night we went for a big gathering dinner... cos ZC's gd friend Albert had a gathering with his customer cum friend Joris. This Joris is a Dutch and spent quite some time cycling around the world. Nice life! And he came back to find Albert cos about a year ago before he left, he said he'll be back and there he is. And cos so, Albert admires Joris for keeping his word. If I were Albert, I guess I would be. Promises nowadays don't mean a thing anymore because people no longer kept to their words. Hence if someone makes a promise to you and manage to keep it, then it becomes very precious. Last time when I was in primary school, there was a "qian bian wen da ti" that says "what is something that cannot be broken"? The answer is a promise. That was probably 12 years or more ago, when people generally believe so, that promises must be kept and cannot be broken. As time passes, it seems like this is being eroded. For me, I always believe that promises cannot be broken, unless someone whom you made the promise to you broke it. Then it becomes meaningless for you to keep your promise. Cos its not worth it anymore. And even if you stuck to yours, you end up being called "stupid".
As Malacca was so relaxing, I really enjoyed myself there. There, nobody seems to be in a rush for time. You generally do not see people running around so say things like "faster lah, no time already". You judge your own pace. Even like shopping... you can nua around and nobody kind of stresses you to buy. Btw I bought myYSL love palette (launched in Dec 07 in SG) in Parkson Malacca. Hahah... in SG all sold out le. In there still left 3. Heheh... thou not too cheap, abt S$68, I bought it. I take it as a collection. Pretty item!
I still have 11 days of leave to take... and I seriously don't know how to finish it. Maybe plan a holiday in the 2nd half of the year?? Hmm... see how lah.
Btw, Malacca's security is quite good. Not like JB or KL. Overall, many thanks to ZC and his family and friends for their kind gestures. Appreciate it a lot!!!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Being Sick
I was down with stomach flu on Thursday. A very very terrible experience indeed. Diarrhoeas, vomitting, and totally couldn't eat anything. No mood to eat at all. Plus always have to go toilet to let off the super watery shit. Keeps me wondering what's there to shit when I didn't really eat. Mostly water perhaps.
After this incident, I think I truly appreciate the benefits of being healthy. You really can do what you want. Being sick is not fun AT ALL. So weak and sleepy and lethargic and helpless. Hate it.
Decided to take good care of myself. Shall not always eat those unhealthy food. Should drink more water and eat more fruits. Eat my lv4 zao3 regularly. Try to purge all the toxins out.
My new year resolution is probably to try and stay as healthy as possible. I'm turning 25 le. Not so young anymore. So must try to keep fit. No kidding!!
After this incident, I think I truly appreciate the benefits of being healthy. You really can do what you want. Being sick is not fun AT ALL. So weak and sleepy and lethargic and helpless. Hate it.
Decided to take good care of myself. Shall not always eat those unhealthy food. Should drink more water and eat more fruits. Eat my lv4 zao3 regularly. Try to purge all the toxins out.
My new year resolution is probably to try and stay as healthy as possible. I'm turning 25 le. Not so young anymore. So must try to keep fit. No kidding!!
Raspberry!!
Spring 2008 has many makeup in raspberry colours. Not too sure why but yah... berries are now heading the makeup fashion.
I bought them from a yahoo seller called muddyslide. Her prices are usually about $10 to $30 dollars cheaper than retail prices. I have bought a few things from her previously. Probably a few years back. I have been checking her auctions now and then and recently wanted to get a YSL pop blush from her. Sadly, some other person "snatched" it from me by buying it at a "Buy It Now" price. To prevent the same sad story from happening, I decided to get the two items at "Buy It Now" prices as well. Save me the hassle of monitoring if anyone tries to outbid me. Worse still, no chance for me if someone decided to buy it NOW. As a result of the YSL thingy, I had to try to source the YSL blusher at counters. It retails at $62. I nearly fainted. But its really pretty. Not too sure when Tangs will launch it. Taka will launch it on 11th and 12th and they have got a french makeup artiste to do a makeover. The price is $100, fully redeemable. I signed up for a slot at about 7 pm on the 12th. Not too sure if I'll turn up.
Pink has always been adorned by ladies... including me. Just a minute ago, I gave in to my temptations. I bidded on Bobbi Brown's Spring Raspberry Collection items. Note the S....
They are:
(1) NEW Pink Raspberry Pot Rouge for Lips and Cheeks
(2) Raspberry Palette
I bought them from a yahoo seller called muddyslide. Her prices are usually about $10 to $30 dollars cheaper than retail prices. I have bought a few things from her previously. Probably a few years back. I have been checking her auctions now and then and recently wanted to get a YSL pop blush from her. Sadly, some other person "snatched" it from me by buying it at a "Buy It Now" price. To prevent the same sad story from happening, I decided to get the two items at "Buy It Now" prices as well. Save me the hassle of monitoring if anyone tries to outbid me. Worse still, no chance for me if someone decided to buy it NOW. As a result of the YSL thingy, I had to try to source the YSL blusher at counters. It retails at $62. I nearly fainted. But its really pretty. Not too sure when Tangs will launch it. Taka will launch it on 11th and 12th and they have got a french makeup artiste to do a makeover. The price is $100, fully redeemable. I signed up for a slot at about 7 pm on the 12th. Not too sure if I'll turn up.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Recently fell in love with spreeing online at livejournal. Joined like 6 to 7 sprees already. Very scary. And luckily the things that I bought were not like very very expensive. Only a few masks and some cheap makeup items. A bit crazy le. Wonder when the Jill Stuart spree will come again. Heard there was one but missed it I think. Arghhhh...
I want to go for a short holiday but I don't know where to go. So many places, so little time and money. I want to go HK, Taiwan, Japan, US, Europe!!, NZ, Aust, Beaches, TIBET and .........
I think I have some sickness like always need to spend money.
Recently my pimples have turned from bad to worse. Very sian.
And I really am in love with this brand called Agnes b. Recently just bought a white leather handbag (after Isetan $35 voucher discount) at $390. Very scared it will become dirty but its really very pretty!!! I took photos of it. Next time shall post. Those things that I spreed for, think will post also...whahahah! Evil spending girl!!!
I want to go for a short holiday but I don't know where to go. So many places, so little time and money. I want to go HK, Taiwan, Japan, US, Europe!!, NZ, Aust, Beaches, TIBET and .........
I think I have some sickness like always need to spend money.
Recently my pimples have turned from bad to worse. Very sian.
And I really am in love with this brand called Agnes b. Recently just bought a white leather handbag (after Isetan $35 voucher discount) at $390. Very scared it will become dirty but its really very pretty!!! I took photos of it. Next time shall post. Those things that I spreed for, think will post also...whahahah! Evil spending girl!!!
Saturday, February 9, 2008
I'm soooooo bored. It's the 3rd day of CNY. 4 days of holidays. 2 days weekdays... followed by 2 days of the weekends. It might be a good idea to nua once in a while but when you spend most of your time at home doing practically nothing, the boredom worms come and attack you.
Actually when you have a lot of time, you should be doing things that you wanted to do but never had the time to (or it is just an excuse). Now got time already. But the lazy worms ask you to rest and relax because its holidays. They psycho you by saying that now you don't nua, later busy and tired le, you'll think back and feel you should have... Its already now 4+ pm. So many things I want to do.
1) Go Muji get storage box (not even sure if its in stock)
2) Wash sponges/ brushes (simple lazy. Later might do it)
3) Go get a back-up of Dior's spring collection. So so pretty. S$78. (must get at Tangs else no 10% rebate)
4) Buy brushes from Essential Beauty Supplies. Want to get my hands on the optic fibre brushes. So useful! But due to mum's consistent and incessant naggings about why I shouldn't buy online, I hesistate. Arghhhh....
5) Ok finally put up one of my Peony Shimmerbrick on auctions. Dunno when it'll be sold.
Later need to go auntie's house for dinner. Then later meeting CC friends to watch Stephen' Chow's CJ7. This strange like dunno what WH hates to do things in Jurong. Then "force" people to watch somewhere else. End up watching in Causeway pt. And even suggested that Lx and I go take train and shop around first. Eh hello, didn't I just sms you that I've got a dinner? And go take train for a midnight show? Its so tiring to take train at such a time. If so xin ku, why can't we just watch at Jurong Point? I don't mind taking a bus to JP. Even if take taxi, also not that exp. Still v exp compared to the good old days. Of cos, cannot rant at him lah. Frankly speaking, really wanted to tell him forget about it. I'll watch with Lx at JP ourselves. Before I did that, he said go Causeway pt. OK loh... but if he insists that we travel there ourselves just because he hates to be in Jurong, I'll def ask him to go fly kite. 100% sure!
Actually when you have a lot of time, you should be doing things that you wanted to do but never had the time to (or it is just an excuse). Now got time already. But the lazy worms ask you to rest and relax because its holidays. They psycho you by saying that now you don't nua, later busy and tired le, you'll think back and feel you should have... Its already now 4+ pm. So many things I want to do.
1) Go Muji get storage box (not even sure if its in stock)
2) Wash sponges/ brushes (simple lazy. Later might do it)
3) Go get a back-up of Dior's spring collection. So so pretty. S$78. (must get at Tangs else no 10% rebate)
4) Buy brushes from Essential Beauty Supplies. Want to get my hands on the optic fibre brushes. So useful! But due to mum's consistent and incessant naggings about why I shouldn't buy online, I hesistate. Arghhhh....
5) Ok finally put up one of my Peony Shimmerbrick on auctions. Dunno when it'll be sold.
Later need to go auntie's house for dinner. Then later meeting CC friends to watch Stephen' Chow's CJ7. This strange like dunno what WH hates to do things in Jurong. Then "force" people to watch somewhere else. End up watching in Causeway pt. And even suggested that Lx and I go take train and shop around first. Eh hello, didn't I just sms you that I've got a dinner? And go take train for a midnight show? Its so tiring to take train at such a time. If so xin ku, why can't we just watch at Jurong Point? I don't mind taking a bus to JP. Even if take taxi, also not that exp. Still v exp compared to the good old days. Of cos, cannot rant at him lah. Frankly speaking, really wanted to tell him forget about it. I'll watch with Lx at JP ourselves. Before I did that, he said go Causeway pt. OK loh... but if he insists that we travel there ourselves just because he hates to be in Jurong, I'll def ask him to go fly kite. 100% sure!
Happy Chinese New Year!
Happy Chinese New Year! Its the year of the mouse. Heard this year will have quite a lot of disasters and all. Not too sure how true it is. But would like to wish all to have a healthy and good year ahead and be brave to all the nasty onslaughts that might come your way!! Everybody jia you!!!!
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I rem what I want to write. Went Mac with him to eat last night. Talked about where he will be 5 yrs later. I said overseas. He said he hoped so too. Shall see how bah. He so hardworking. Think the bosses will like him. Then I asked him back. Where will I be 5 yrs later. He didn't think much. He said Singapore. And at that very moment, I felt like I was seen to be stuck in SG when in actual fact, I really wanted to get out of SG to see the world. However, my current position doesn't allow. Anyway... see how bah. As at now, I still don't see an opportunity to go. Arghhhh!
Btw think I should take up some courses to enrich myself. Heheheh...
Btw think I should take up some courses to enrich myself. Heheheh...
I just thought that I wanted to blog. Now I actually forgot what I want to write about. Anyway... I always have things to say. Decided to blog some stuff on my recent thoughts abt my stuff and my lemmings.
1) Burberry Blue Bag
Ask WK to help me buy 2 bags. Wondered if I mentioned earlier. Thought of selling one away. Until now still haven't take pictures of the bag for selling. Took bag out to see see. Realised its quite a nice bag anyway. Kind of decided to keep it for myself. And I ask WK to buy for ME. Not to sell away. If he ever asks and I say I sold it off, I doubt he'll feel good. Worse still, he'll ask me go fly kite if I ask him to help me get anything. He's really a nice guy. Very helpful and simple. Joanne always say his husband never buy her stuff but this WK does buy for his wife. Hahah...
2) Paul and Joe Disney Collection
Was at first very disappointed that SG couldn't get this collection. Anyway plucked up my spending courage to ask http://www.ichibankao.com/ for a quote. I was told chances of getting it is like super slim. So I almost gave up. Had a feeling that I might get a chance and I did. Wondering if its to prepare a bad day for tml. Tml is like the chinese sun calendar 1st day of the year, i.e. New Year's Day. A bit different from the normal calendar one. The more accurate one is the sun calendar. Saw from somewhere that if the first day is good, then the year is good. Shall not comment further. Anyway see photo of the stuff that I bought.
I got myself the pink one, the one on the RHS and the lip treatment. Din manage to get the bambi ones thou it looks really nice. And they weight 25 g!!?? So much! No wonder so exp. In order to pay someone to get it for me, I had to get them at a premium which can't be saved. All in all with the 2 items plus EMS shipping from Japan, it costs US$79. Currently US dollars still quite low... so still not so bad. Better quickly pay up before 12 am. Ok done, paid @ a rate of 1.451.
3) MAC N Collection
I am a bit crazy over this collection. Bought Light Medium MSF (its like face powder), Light Flush MSF (can be used as a blusher) - heard from forums its really nice and soft. Wondering if I should get a back-up... and whether got stocks to get or not... and the Light Medium MSF too. Also bought 2N and 3N lipstick, of which 3N is a colour I really like. Nudish pink. I reserved another one at Tangs Vivo as back-up. Light Medium was OOS when I wanted to reserve at the same place. Maybe I should try CK Tangs. Ohh yah I got e/s Nanogold as well. Its a very light and nice colour... reflects pink when light shines on it. Its like wear = dun wear kind of e/s but that's what I like about it. Not loud and all. Same reasoning why I like 3N lipstick. I want more back-ups!!!
4) MAC Fafi Collection
Heard its coming out... and heard its nice. Need to know what shades are there. Then proceed to reserve if I like the stuff. Hahahaha
5) Paul n Joe Spring Collection
Looking forward to it. PnJ always manages to make me spend money. Love their products. They got new make-up base... dunno realise when. Then this Spring collection got lipsticks and face colours. So sweet. And others prob. Update when its out in SG. Heard its after CNY.
Ok, that's all for now. More to come maybe. Lalalalalal
1) Burberry Blue Bag
Ask WK to help me buy 2 bags. Wondered if I mentioned earlier. Thought of selling one away. Until now still haven't take pictures of the bag for selling. Took bag out to see see. Realised its quite a nice bag anyway. Kind of decided to keep it for myself. And I ask WK to buy for ME. Not to sell away. If he ever asks and I say I sold it off, I doubt he'll feel good. Worse still, he'll ask me go fly kite if I ask him to help me get anything. He's really a nice guy. Very helpful and simple. Joanne always say his husband never buy her stuff but this WK does buy for his wife. Hahah...
2) Paul and Joe Disney Collection
Was at first very disappointed that SG couldn't get this collection. Anyway plucked up my spending courage to ask http://www.ichibankao.com/ for a quote. I was told chances of getting it is like super slim. So I almost gave up. Had a feeling that I might get a chance and I did. Wondering if its to prepare a bad day for tml. Tml is like the chinese sun calendar 1st day of the year, i.e. New Year's Day. A bit different from the normal calendar one. The more accurate one is the sun calendar. Saw from somewhere that if the first day is good, then the year is good. Shall not comment further. Anyway see photo of the stuff that I bought.
I got myself the pink one, the one on the RHS and the lip treatment. Din manage to get the bambi ones thou it looks really nice. And they weight 25 g!!?? So much! No wonder so exp. In order to pay someone to get it for me, I had to get them at a premium which can't be saved. All in all with the 2 items plus EMS shipping from Japan, it costs US$79. Currently US dollars still quite low... so still not so bad. Better quickly pay up before 12 am. Ok done, paid @ a rate of 1.451.
3) MAC N Collection
I am a bit crazy over this collection. Bought Light Medium MSF (its like face powder), Light Flush MSF (can be used as a blusher) - heard from forums its really nice and soft. Wondering if I should get a back-up... and whether got stocks to get or not... and the Light Medium MSF too. Also bought 2N and 3N lipstick, of which 3N is a colour I really like. Nudish pink. I reserved another one at Tangs Vivo as back-up. Light Medium was OOS when I wanted to reserve at the same place. Maybe I should try CK Tangs. Ohh yah I got e/s Nanogold as well. Its a very light and nice colour... reflects pink when light shines on it. Its like wear = dun wear kind of e/s but that's what I like about it. Not loud and all. Same reasoning why I like 3N lipstick. I want more back-ups!!!
4) MAC Fafi Collection
Heard its coming out... and heard its nice. Need to know what shades are there. Then proceed to reserve if I like the stuff. Hahahaha
5) Paul n Joe Spring Collection
Looking forward to it. PnJ always manages to make me spend money. Love their products. They got new make-up base... dunno realise when. Then this Spring collection got lipsticks and face colours. So sweet. And others prob. Update when its out in SG. Heard its after CNY.
Ok, that's all for now. More to come maybe. Lalalalalal
Friday, January 25, 2008
Felt totally lousy... shit! Pui! Yucks!
Wanted to get this Disney Collection.
http://www.paul-joe-beaute.com/jp/seasonal/seasonal.html?page=1
It's not going to be launched in SG because there's no Disneyland in SG. What the heck! I guess it'll be a sell-out one loh. Dunno what the people are thinking of. No disneyland that's why all the more must lauch wat. Make pple want to go Disneyland. No brains. Tried to get a CP but was informed that there are more than 15 pple on the waiting list and chances of getting is like slim until slimmer than a pc of paper. Say will inform me if there are extras. How funny. You think will have meh? Stop patronizing me.
Next... is about him loh. WTH... Sms him a few days back to ask if he's free on Sunday. He says should be ok... then suddenly say need to eat dinner with his god-ma. So Sunday left with afternoon free. Morning he going church. When he's done, it'll be like 1 pm already. And his dinner is in Novena. If I want to meet him, then go Novena eat the chicken rice then go back. HOW stupid. It's like a 1 hr MRT ride to novena and to eat a half hour lunch with him then go back. Waste time only loh. After lunch I believe he believes there's nothing to do. He hates shopping. But besides eating and shopping, there's nothing much to do in SG. So he complains again abt how boring SG is and he wants to leave. OK fine... if it was me, I guess I would want to leave, say for a couple of years. To leave here permanently is not in my consideration yet. As a Singaporean, I think I still feel something for her. FYI I still keep my national day stuff... there's one year I managed to get tics to go see the live parade. Thanks to my ex. Haha.
Yah... so if he wants to leave, what can I do? There's nothing to stop him anyway. He also doesn't love me like as if without me, he'll die immediately. He prob has moments thinking how nice life would be if I didn't exist. You think he'll be that evil? Dunno... Ok... forget about the leaving SG stunt. I'll be sad lah... but life still goes on.
Back to the Novena chicken rice case... yah waste of time loh. But if I want to see him, I got to do it wat. Chances are we'll end up black face again. Its like so excited about being able to meet him then something must happen that makes my blood boil. And the whole romantic feeling about being able to see him vanishes like sparkles in a explosive way. So should I go or not? Actually I'm not so keen. I have got like tons of things undone and unbought. This sux.
Just a footnote in case I forget. I lent him $360 for him to pay his OCBC bill cos he cannot withdraw more than $2000 from his ATM card. Just in case he never returns me and I forget to collect, this post serves as a reminder.
Wanted to get this Disney Collection.
http://www.paul-joe-beaute.com/jp/seasonal/seasonal.html?page=1
It's not going to be launched in SG because there's no Disneyland in SG. What the heck! I guess it'll be a sell-out one loh. Dunno what the people are thinking of. No disneyland that's why all the more must lauch wat. Make pple want to go Disneyland. No brains. Tried to get a CP but was informed that there are more than 15 pple on the waiting list and chances of getting is like slim until slimmer than a pc of paper. Say will inform me if there are extras. How funny. You think will have meh? Stop patronizing me.
Next... is about him loh. WTH... Sms him a few days back to ask if he's free on Sunday. He says should be ok... then suddenly say need to eat dinner with his god-ma. So Sunday left with afternoon free. Morning he going church. When he's done, it'll be like 1 pm already. And his dinner is in Novena. If I want to meet him, then go Novena eat the chicken rice then go back. HOW stupid. It's like a 1 hr MRT ride to novena and to eat a half hour lunch with him then go back. Waste time only loh. After lunch I believe he believes there's nothing to do. He hates shopping. But besides eating and shopping, there's nothing much to do in SG. So he complains again abt how boring SG is and he wants to leave. OK fine... if it was me, I guess I would want to leave, say for a couple of years. To leave here permanently is not in my consideration yet. As a Singaporean, I think I still feel something for her. FYI I still keep my national day stuff... there's one year I managed to get tics to go see the live parade. Thanks to my ex. Haha.
Yah... so if he wants to leave, what can I do? There's nothing to stop him anyway. He also doesn't love me like as if without me, he'll die immediately. He prob has moments thinking how nice life would be if I didn't exist. You think he'll be that evil? Dunno... Ok... forget about the leaving SG stunt. I'll be sad lah... but life still goes on.
Back to the Novena chicken rice case... yah waste of time loh. But if I want to see him, I got to do it wat. Chances are we'll end up black face again. Its like so excited about being able to meet him then something must happen that makes my blood boil. And the whole romantic feeling about being able to see him vanishes like sparkles in a explosive way. So should I go or not? Actually I'm not so keen. I have got like tons of things undone and unbought. This sux.
Just a footnote in case I forget. I lent him $360 for him to pay his OCBC bill cos he cannot withdraw more than $2000 from his ATM card. Just in case he never returns me and I forget to collect, this post serves as a reminder.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
I was blogging just now... for some reason somehow the page got lost. It always happens. Was saying that I went to buy 2 bebe clothes that costs around $140 each or lesser a bit. Bebe is considered a more luxury brand bah. I've always been a cheapo for clothes as I've never really bought any really exp clothes. Only jackets costs more than $100 and prob a black dress from LVER. Never have I bought tops that cost that much. But I think the material is good and I like the design. Afraid that I'll desire for more and more luxury goods. The thought of it makes me shiver. And yah... I don't have a lot of cash. So the more I think of it, the more scared I am. What if I become a branded freak? Btw that time when WK went Japan, I got him to buy for me 2 burberry blue bags. One of them I think was some miscommunication... he got me the wrong one. So think might sell it off.
I'm more shifting towards loving expensive things that has got quality or really nice and shifting away from the cheapo ones. Am I normal? Or am I getting more and more materialistic???
Had some communication with Yong Ming. Going to tree top walk with Huixian, Groovie and him later at 7+ am. He will come and pick me up... then somehow he said petrol v exp and all... and I got really pai seh and I din wan to be a leech. So i sms him to tell him that I don't want a ride from him and will go macritchie on my own. Then he called to say he's joking. Then I called him back a while later to try explain why I felt pai seh. Cos Huixian once said he complained about people using him as "Ahmad" cos he got car to use. I was afraid I'll be labelled as a lousy friend. And I wanted to have some dignity and not let pple hate me. Then later he sms me. Below are the contents:
"Hey silly girl. Don't worry. Im more than okay to pick you la. I always fetch my good friend aroud' and you are more than a good friend to me" Wordings and punctuations as actual.
After seeing that, I felt very touched and guilty as well... for suspecting that he was calculative and the petrol was more impt than our friendship. I guess I was the bad guy here. Touched also of the sms contents. Cos seldom you get such things from friends... reassurances that you are an impt friend. He's also my impt friend. To be really honest, I liked him before and kind of like really quite a lot. And thank goodness we didn't get tog... cos actually what we looked for were very different. And thankful that we didn't become like strangers after he told me he didn't like me. We transitioned into very good friends after the confession by me. And he was the very first guy who rejected me. And he was the first guy who hugged me even though we weren't together. And I was the first girl he hugged besides his mum and his 2nd gf. Would really like to say a heartfelt thank you to yong ming. I hope he can feel it. Thanks for being my friend.
I'm more shifting towards loving expensive things that has got quality or really nice and shifting away from the cheapo ones. Am I normal? Or am I getting more and more materialistic???
Had some communication with Yong Ming. Going to tree top walk with Huixian, Groovie and him later at 7+ am. He will come and pick me up... then somehow he said petrol v exp and all... and I got really pai seh and I din wan to be a leech. So i sms him to tell him that I don't want a ride from him and will go macritchie on my own. Then he called to say he's joking. Then I called him back a while later to try explain why I felt pai seh. Cos Huixian once said he complained about people using him as "Ahmad" cos he got car to use. I was afraid I'll be labelled as a lousy friend. And I wanted to have some dignity and not let pple hate me. Then later he sms me. Below are the contents:
"Hey silly girl. Don't worry. Im more than okay to pick you la. I always fetch my good friend aroud' and you are more than a good friend to me" Wordings and punctuations as actual.
After seeing that, I felt very touched and guilty as well... for suspecting that he was calculative and the petrol was more impt than our friendship. I guess I was the bad guy here. Touched also of the sms contents. Cos seldom you get such things from friends... reassurances that you are an impt friend. He's also my impt friend. To be really honest, I liked him before and kind of like really quite a lot. And thank goodness we didn't get tog... cos actually what we looked for were very different. And thankful that we didn't become like strangers after he told me he didn't like me. We transitioned into very good friends after the confession by me. And he was the very first guy who rejected me. And he was the first guy who hugged me even though we weren't together. And I was the first girl he hugged besides his mum and his 2nd gf. Would really like to say a heartfelt thank you to yong ming. I hope he can feel it. Thanks for being my friend.
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